May 2013
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“the worst thing about me is I’m all about two extremes. I either care...”
“Ini urusan aku sama kamu, ya aku sama kamu, nggak ada lainnya :”)”
– (via virginiaprisanty)
hoooo…….
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the choices in life
I heard somewhere that there are three aspects in life to consider:
me-time
social interaction
academic success
the catch is… you can only pick two of them.
people who know me well enough could easily tell which ones are my picks.
yes, I will eliminate number 2.
I know it sounds bad, but I’ve unknowingly been doing that all my life. I’m so busy chasing dreams and earning...
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press delete.
I’m deleting our chat history.
where you shared all your future plans and your dreams.
where you explained your passion for basketball and how you call it a ‘haven’.
where you exposed your past and made me cry because of it.
where you told me what you look for in a girl and made me think you were talking about me.
where we joked around and laughed.
where I tried to flirt but always ended up...
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“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will...”
– Dave Matthews (via llogicas)
MAYBE AT THE WRONG TIME. MAYBE TOO LATE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAshit.
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cheesecake knife
I watch as he runs to the front door of the cafe. with his long legs, it takes him only seconds to get there. he combs his hair quickly with his fingers and inhales deeply. he opens the door. I prepare myself. I take a deep breath. in and out. my hands are sweaty as I grip the edge of my chair in caution. I watch him walk slowly to me. with a big smile on his face and a beautiful girl he proudly...
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Petualangan Samichat dan Safinta #3: service...
safinta: yaaa kamu kan udah gede, udah bisa nilai sendiri mana yang salah mana yang bener, udah bisa perkirain akibat-akibatnya...
samichat: yah, unnie, that's MY line!! DON'T STEAL MY LINE!! YOU'RE STEALING MY LINE!!
safinta: .....
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April 2013
6 posts
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why it's me and you and not us
“this is nice…”
“what is?”
“this. laying around together, reading books.”
“eating marshmallow…”
“drinking iced coffee…”
“I know, right…”
“sometimes I wonder……. no, never mind.”
“what the hell. tell me.”
“no, that’d be awkward.”
“you...
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gombalnya Bangkit (literally just happened a...
Kid: kangen maksimal nih
aku: sekangen apa?
Kid: sekangen cintaku sama kamu, nggak abis2...
aku: ............ HUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA EWWWWW
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that damn twist
“hey!” her voice called me. I rose my head and saw her vibrant smile. it seemed like she flew across the room to me. I stood up and spread my arms to her. she jumped on me and clung her arms around my neck, gave me a peck in my left cheek.
“did you wait long?” she asked apologetically. her eyes sparkled. they always did.
she sat next to me on the big couch and squeezed herself to me. I wrapped...
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yeah.
I rarely show tears of frustration in front of other people. not even my best friends. almost all the times when I cry at them, I cry for stupid, sappy, childish love stories or friendship issues.
I don’t know how, or why, or even since when, but I have a need to keep a stoic face in front of other people. I must always appear calm and composed, fearless, smart, and tactical. “I...
March 2013
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carrot juice (+ oranges)
preparing tools and ingredients +- 3 mins
peeling carrot +- 3 mins
chopping carrot +- 2 mins
squeezing orange +- 5 mins
accidentally knocking over orange filter and spill all orange seeds to blender +- 2 secs
crying over own stupidity +- 1 min
re-filtering ALL carrots and orange juice and the seeds +- 3 mins
adding water sugar and ice +- 2 mins
looking for blender’s lid +- 3 mins...
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petualangan Samichat dan Safinta #1
sam: ak ninggal sikat gigi di sini yak nyu
saf: iya, harusnya mah sama baju juga, tinggal aja gak papa..
sam: I'm sorry, but I'm just not ready to move in with you yet...
saf: .......
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English
I’m good at English. speaking, writing, listening, reading, all those stuffs. I’m proud of it and, I have to admit, sometimes I brag about it. more often than not :P
because I deserve it. I earned it.
I’m not some genetically-genius academic miracle who speaks 20 different languages, nor do I own astoundingly high IQ score. I’m average. me being good at English is the...
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do you?
do you immediately think someone is unfriendly just because they don’t smile as much as you you?
do you immediately alienate someone just because they don’t hang around and talk as much as you do?
do you immediately label someone as ignorant when they can’t help you with ALL your problems?
do you immediately judge someone as selfish just because they talk a lot about...
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ngobrol siang-siang
finta: lucu kok. tinggi. coba lebih tua ya...
aku: ho oh. baru putus lagi...
finta: .....
aku: .....
finta: jangan dicobain ya.....
aku: *ngakak*
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le mean girl
look, dude. I’m probably one of the most logical, well-structured, well-grounded people you’ll ever meet in your live. I’m good in analyzing facts and I usually say all the right things that people never think about until something bad happen to them.
when people don’t listen to me, well, for the lack of words, they’re screwed.
but I don’t like to be too needy...
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“minggu ini kuliah klasifikasi sudah mulai belum? saya mulai ngajar kapan? hah?...”
– my dad on the phone with one of his coleague. soooo that’s where I inherit my snarkiness from… =))
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vampirevvekend:
being told i was smart and above average from a young age was probably one of the worst things to happen to me because now i have a complex and question my entire existence when i dont excel at something right away
ㅠㅠ yes.
February 2013
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tenangkan resahku saat langkahku terasa berat
...
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lelah
saya lelah mengejar-ngejar orang lain agar mau berteman dengan saya
tiga puluh lima hari kemarin saya tersiksa harus seperti itu setiap hari
kalau sekarang orang-orang yang berteman dengan saya kemudian menjauh karena berbagai macam alasan
sibuk, umumnya
ya sudah
saya tidak akan minta-minta ditemani
saya tidak akan ajak jalan-jalan
karena saya tahu jawabannya nanti
“waduh aku udah...
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danger
“hi there,” “hi yourself,” “you don’t come in?” “no,” “why?” “it’s better here,” “all your friends are inside,” “and so are yours,” “well I saw you sitting here alone, it looked lonely,” “do I look lonely?” “you look… discontent,” “not entirely wrong…” “what’s your name?” “it’s a common ethic to mention your name first before asking other person’s,” “I’m Ryan,” “hi Ryan,” “it’s also a common sense...
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I'm so stressed out :"(
I had to hang out everyday for a whole year (and more) before I started having any emotional connection with my college best friends (finta nye ook ratri). I tried making friends with the HNMUN team, but ended up being hated and publicly bashed. but that one was my fault, I admit.
now I’m older and I thought I changed. I didn’t expect to be close to anyone in 35 days, but I honestly...
January 2013
6 posts
full-of-despair asked: you're not alone at all. that last text post you made explains everything I'm going through too, if you want to talk I'm always here for you. I know it's hard especially if you feel like you're alone so I'm here :)
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......
I’m difficult. I know that. I know that very well. I’ve been living and struggling with that for more than 20 years.
I don’t make friends easily. I have trust issues. even with those people you think I’m close with, I’m not really. I don’t trust even half of them 100%. I’m struggling with loneliness my whole life; feeling like I can’t understand...
you know.
I survived a whole year alone. I can survive three weeks alone.
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this is a highly delusional fangirl post as a...
I wanna be married to Jung Yunho.
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2013 resolutions
so Kid and I sat down in Dunkin Donuts yesterday afternoon, celebrating early new year’s party because I’m never allowed to be out after dark. yes, I’m some kind of anti-vampire or something.
we already ate our donuts, but we didn’t want to go home yet, so I came up with an idea to make resolutions for 2013. (Kid said, “I’m hi def”, he’s so babo I...
December 2012
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them.
I realize that I live surrounded by amazing people.
Safinta who stayed with me during the most unstable, weirdest, gloomiest, unhappiest, craziest time, who always opens her door for me to eat and sleep and fangirl, who helps me with, well, everything, in life.
Oktarina who introduced me to the most amazing man on earth (no, not Kid. Jung Yunho of TVXQ), who is like a baby sister (or a daughter...
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2012 part 2
where were we?
around July-September, I had an internship program in an architecture consultant, and I don’t really remember much about it. the people are nice and the workload is not many, but it bored me to death. and as soon as classes starts, I got distracted and only showed up twice or three times a week to work. office people were really cool about it, but it still bothers me so much...
